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Hi Karl!

Sorry magsusulat nanaman ako ng mahabang letter at madramang letter sayo. I’ll try my best to make this as short as possible.

First of I just want to greet you a HAPPY NEW YEAR. I hope youll have a good year and a fresh start. 2014 wasn’t our year. Not only in relationship aspect pero individually hindi talaga eto yung year para satin. Too much heartache, stress and bullcrap.

Second, I’m greeting you in advance because I want to block all our communications. It’s really hard for me to talk to you or to think whether maguusap pa ba tayo the next day or not. I know that you’re taking your time to think seriously and I know that we’ve officially broke up. But then again, yung mga sinasabi mo it keeps me holding on and hoping that one day, you’ll choose me.

I’m not gonna block you sa facebook or anywhere. I just don’t want you talking to me again. Not because I don’t want to talk to you. Believe me I do! I’d love to tell you stories and shits. I’d love to know everything that you’ve been to just like before. But yun nga e, di na tayo tulad ng dati. Nahihirapan lang ako because I’m asking for signs to God if I should move on or not, and He always end up giving me a sign NOT TO GIVE UP. And I don’t know naguguluhan talaga ako as much as you do.

I just don’t want any form of communication from you right now. Kasi alam ko naman, deep down, talo na ko. You’ll choose her. Kasi sabi mo gusto mong bumalik sakin, pero there’s something that’s holding you back. Siguro si Sandy yun, or siguro yung tagal natin na nanghihinayang ka or what. Wag kang manghinayang, oo hindi biro yung three years, but siguro I cannot give the kind of quality ng relationship that Sandy could give to you. Nor the quality of happiness that she could give. Im sorry I failed on those parts. I tried, but I failed.

Yun nga, my main point here is that, please, if you’re not going to choose me, please don’t make it harder for me to move on. Please don’t give me something to hold on to because you’ve already given me tons of memories to hold on to which is definitely unbearable to handle.

I love you Karl, no doubt. I love you so much. But as much as I love you, sobrang nasasaktan na ko. As in. If you can’t choose me, then please, don’t give me reasons to hope na you will. Na I’ll still be the one that you will choose.

If it dawned on you one day na ako talaga and you’re really persistent and proved na ako na talaga, di ko ipagkakait yung chance na yun sayo. Di ako madamot Karl.

Basta yun lang. Kahit ito nalang yung ibigay mo sakin? A chance for me to move on with my life without you. A chance for me to face every tomorrow without you. A chance for me to be me without you.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year! Congratulations din OIC Padrigon :)