Mmm, today's our exams in UR and STS. Tapos gising pa ko until 1 am ata. Super di lang makatulog? Ewan ko. And medjo hilo pa din ako kasi uminom kami ni Frence.
Actually kakatapos ko lang magtake ng exams sa UR. Tas idk, tangina yung heart ko parang sasabog na. Di ko alam why. Yung parang kinakabahan ako and i feel like something's going to happen but i dont know kung ano 😞😞😞
Laters.
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Hahahaha. A friend told me that i should give up the fight. Na magpamiss o ano. Hahahaha. Di ko alam gagawin ko bcauase every ounce of my body is telling that i should give up. But my heart says no. Pero ewan. Ang sakit sakit na.
Gusto ko nalang umiyak kaso. Wala na kong iiiyak. Puta. Paano ba to?!
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Well today has been a roller coaster ride for me. Maybe, or probably this is how the next days will be like. One moment you feel so sad and so empty and the next you're so happy and your heart is jumping.
So we had our exams in UR and STS. I wasn't able to review to both subjects. TBH! Pero I was happy kasi Jy, Robey and I were able to pass our thesis on time PLUS! Tama yung ginawa namin. Or nila. Hahaha. Medjo guilty lang because I wasn't able to help that much in our thesis workloads these past few days because of my problems. But then, all is well. Tapos I was able to study for a bit sa STS so I was able to answer naman yung iba.
After class, Daichi asked kung anong plano since today's the last day. Tapos sabi ko kayo bahala. Nag-aya sila uminom. Which is okay lang naman kasi ngayon nalang uli kame iinom. Ayoko sana dito sa condo because it brings back a lot of memories pero ayun nga wala naman din kami mapuntahan kasi ayaw naman din nila sa Central or Beach. Tapos I ended up breaking down in front of them and leaving them.
Medjo tipsy na ko nun. I went to Ayala Triangle to watch the dancing lights pero super aga pa and may mass pa, I waited for a bit pero ang tagal so I opted to go to Greenbelt. NagSB ako nun. Tapos sinundan ako ni Z. Tapos usap onti then uwi.
I was kind of hoping that Karl will come today kasi sabi niya nga na dito sya magssleep kasi papauwiin daw sila pero a part of me says na don't expect for him to come. Kasi the whole day he's not texting me or anything. Ako naman, in my defense, I wasn't texting him kasi nga I respect his decision na gusto niya ng time. Kahit super kating kati na ko.
So I went home and then Jy texted me "BB PUTANG INA!" Tapos ako super kabado kasi naisip ko na baka magkasama si Karl and the girl and nakita niya. Kasi the whole day nga I thought Karl was able to go out and be freeeeeeeeee!!! Pero no. Iba yung kinwento ni Jy. And it made me happy and nadivert yung thoughts and emotions ko for awhile! HAHAHAHAHA.
Then ayun nagsleep ako. I decided to sleep just because I can't wait for his text anymore. Tapos around 10 pala, he was texting me and I wasn't replying. Then he called. Nagising talaga ako sa call niya. Tapos ayun he asked kung kamusta ako and everything and he asked if I was sleeping. Tapos sabi ko oo. So he said na bbye na. And I said okay. Akala ko kasi mahahabol ko pa yung sleep ko pero hindi na ko makatulog. So I texted him and said na "Kainis ka. Di na ko makatulog." Ayun tinawagan niya ko and nagusap kame ng 9 minutes. HEHEHEHEHEHE.
And damn it! I know it was just a small stuff compared to what he's doing before but it made me feel happy. He told me na he was at Kalaw kasi nagrereview siya and they're about to take the test on Monday na. And kwentuhan onti. HIHIHIHI.
O ayan makakatulog na ko ng may smile! CHAROT!
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