Im so tired. Way too tired.

Day 1: Tried but P(F)ain(L)TED

So finally I had the time and energy to start reading facts about the upcoming Psychometrician Board Exam this coming 2016 as well as the coverage of the exams and what to expect. So basically, I read some background on what to expect, what's up with the boards and some of the things that needed to be done. But of course, knowing me, I didn't really read the whole thing or all the stuff written in the articles. More on, scanning and reading the important deets!

Anyhow, after reading and writing the coverage and what-nots. I tried reading/opening the PPT given to me by a good friend. It actually came from a batchmate of ours who took the Psychometrician Board Exam 2015. So since I don't have enough knowledge about this subject (HAH! I KNOW!!) and of course I am really eager to learn and to know more about things under this subject, I opened the PPT about ABPsych (Abnormal Psychology). Of course, just like the usual PPT of any subject being taught to us, it has some background about ABPsych and the definition of ABPsych, normality, abnormality and such. However when I was at I think 7th-9th slide, things got really really really confusing...

I thought to myself "Kaya ko ba talaga to?" "Am I really ready for this?" "IS this really what I wanted?" The things that are written in PPT is not really that hard to comprehend, I mean I can somehow get the meaning, however it's really hard for me to grasp the idea itself. Parang ang hirap idigest, itatak sa utak.

I dont know if I'm just being pessimistic about the things or whatever. But yah.

Anyways... so from reviewing I ended up painting my nails! Lol.

Way to go RIGHT! #RoadToRPM pa more!

SRS

Today a received a good news and delivered a bad news.

I finally got what I was aiming for, which is, REGULARIZATION from the company that I am working. However, I need to decline the offer since I will be moving back to Fairview already.

I was a happy yet sad. Mixed emotions at its finest. Happy that I was regularized but sad because I have to leave the office.

It was really hard for me to leave not because of the work but because of my officemate, friend, colleague, Mitch. Sobrang sad lang because she was crying kanina.

Supposedly, today was my last day however, I will be going back on Tuesday for my clearance and last day.

Nakakalungkot lang talaga. Haysuuu

'Tis the Season to be Jolly

Please don't get me wrong with this post. 

I've always been a fan of Christmas Season. For once, it's the season or the time of the year where everyone is really generous, it's the time of the year where everyone gets to fix/settle their problems, it's the time of the year where families bond with each other, it's the time of the year where everyone are united. To sum it up, it's the time of the year where everyone are giving not only material gifts but giving joy and love to each other.

Aside from that I really really love the weather during this season because I get to use my favorite sweater and just sip my hot choco and read or binge watch movies. Well that's how things used to be back when I was in Saudi Arabia.  But still, before, I still had fun celebrating Christmas even when I'm here in the Philippines because of our Christmas Party.

However, last year's Christmas Season was the worst. I just had the saddest and depressing Christmas Season last year. Of course it was because my Karl and I broke up. Imagine ending a three year long relationship a few days before Christmas (December 22!). And imagine feeling so anxious and all stressed out because they saw a lump in my mom's breast and it wasn't until December 29 when they found out that it was not cancerous (THANK LORD!)

I was really having a hard time last year. And I still am on the road of recovery. Just last night, I had some (I dont know if that's how you'll call it) anxiety attack. I can't sleep, I can't breathe. I feel like my heart is being held so tight, so tight that it hurts. (DI TO OA PLEASE!) And I just felt like crying because everything starts flashing right before my eye. From the day when I felt like I'm only clinging on to a thin thread down to the darkest day. Like I can still clearly remember and feel how I felt a year ago.

So yup, I dont know why but ever since, even if we're okay now. Even if we've both talked about it already and fixed things up, I'm still having flashbacks. Grabe, I don't even want to feel and to think about it knowing na everything's fine between the three of us and all of us are good friends already.

I don't feel any anger every time I'm having those little flashbacks. All I can feel is pain.

Makati Life Again!

So today I went back here in Makati. I first went to DFA to get my mom's passport. However, I dont have the stub and I have to file an affidavit before I can go back there. So then I just decided to go back to Makati to unwind at SB and sip my new favorite drink (which is Iced Green Tea Latté). Kaso I'm not really familiar with Manila so nawala ako. So I just took the MRT going to Glorietta. So instead of going to SB Cash, I went to Glorietta's SB nalang.

But then, since I'm all alone and I don't want to look like stupid there kasi palowbat na din phone ko, I decided to go to National Bookstore to buy a book to read while I stay sa SB. I was about to buy Paulo Coelho's Adultery cos' I've been eyeing that book for so long, however, Mitch Albom's new book caught my eye. Tho, Paulo's book is cheaper than Mitch and I still have a few bucks to shed (LOL! I have to budget my money for the whole week!!!!!) for the book, so I decided to buy Mitch Albom.

And it's really a good decision to buy this book cos' ever since I started reading it, I almost want to finish reading it. I'm so caught up. But I have to control and stop reading it because I still have things to do and of course SB's Glo is not open 24/7.

Before heading to SB, I passed by a small bazzare in Glorietta. I forgot which part of Glorietta it is. Basta it's near NBS. Then I saw this Love.Hope.Faith Time To Save A Life watches. It's cheap and it looks so sophisticated as well. And another thing is that 50% of their profit will go to their beneficiaries such as cancer patients, etc.

I bought two! One for my boyfriend and one is for me. Haha yup! I'm cheesy like that! Anyway, there's plenty of color to choose from. As much as I would love to buy the Navy Blue, Red and Black watches, however, I don't have enough money to buy those. Maybe next time? Hehe. But I love the one that I bought tho. And my boyfriend loves the color too! I can't wait to use it. But I told him that I'm going to use the watch once he's here already.

Then after dropping by to SB, I decided to go home because I'm too tired from my trip to Fairview to Manila, which by the way took 3 hours!!!!!!!!

So when I arrived in the condo, I decided to wrap the things that I bought for my boyfriend. It's just the two shirts and the watch that I bought for him.

So I wrapped my gifts for him immediately, even though he knows what's inside already, because I wanted him to feel the Christmas vibes even if he's away from home. He's actually in the middle of the sea right now, and he'll come back home (probably and hopefully!) on the 25th of February. So he will, once again, be celebrating Christmas away from home, away from us.

I also started wrapping my Christmas gift (yep! Kasi isa pa lang naman!) because I'm not feeling the Christmas vibe yet. But I'll make another blogpost about that.

So yup! This sums up how my day went.

Ciao!

CENTRO ESCOLAR!!!!!!!

Today, I went to school to do something. I've been stressing over this thing that I need to finish and I'm really really glad that somehow, I was able to tick off some things in my to do list.

Anyways, so I went first to the bank to close my account there then went directly to school. So I went first to Sir Norman to get our thesis and then went to Far East Printing to print our CVs and the approval letter. Gaaahd! It feels so good to be back at school. I really missed the place I once called home. 

(View from the 5th floor) 

:: I used to stay here every morning while I'm waiting for my class to start cos I always go to school early. Ang hirap kasi sumakay sa Estrella nun!

:: It feels good that Ate still remembers me. She's still the "mahinhin" and the kindest BMS. So much love for ate!!!!

So after that I went back and forth to 9th floor and 2nd floor. It was really tiring but it was worth it. I have to wait for my professors for like almost the whole day because they were so busy. So while waiting, naabutan na ako ng lunch time, so then I decided to have my lunch. And luckily I saw my friend Stephen and we ate our lunch together.

 (L-R: Z, Me, Stephen)

:: OTW back to school after Z's YB.

Tipen and his new phone :))

After we had our lunch we went back to school to see if Sir Lumpas is already available. So I had to wait until 2PM so I can talk to Sir Lumpas. Around 2:30 PM, finally! I was able to talk to him. Thank God for giving us a professor like him. He's really accommodating and he's even willing to stay late week after next week for me to get our thesis. KUDOS TO SIR LUMPAS! LOVE YOU SIR! 

After talking to Sir Lumpas, my best friend and I payed and had our picture taken for the Alumni ID. Supposedly dapat mas maaga kami na natapos, however kuya from MIAD was too slow. Buti nalang mabait si Kuya and he's still a new employee so maybe he's not really used to doing such work. 

So while waiting, we had a little chitchat with our prof, Ma'am Agnes. Grabe! So much love again for this prof. Tho, I failed to appreciate her back when I was still a student, pero I felt the love and the sincerity while taking to her. She's really boosting ourself confidence and esteem to take the boards, pursue MA. 

 Waiting for our alumni ID

but first, let us take a selfie!!!!!! Loljk.

After what seems to be like 100000000 years. We then got our alumni ID!!! Hihi.

 We directly went to Jollibee to eat our early dinner because we were so tired from going back and forth to 2nd floor up to 9th floor!!!!!!!! 

 All in all this was a fun filled day and I am happy that I was able to do the things that I needed to do and I was able so productive! I'm really happy as well to talk to my beloved professors and to be with my friends! 

PS. Shoutout to my best friend! Thank you so much for helping me! 

Saturday hits!

Haloooooo! It's Saturday and I am off to do some errands. Loljk! Naaah! I just have ti fix something called "THESIS" It's almost a year since we graduated and yet we're still not done with it. Well although we're really done with the THESIS itself but with all the requirements that needed to be done for it to be bookbind we still haven't done it yet.

Well it's one of the main source of my STRESS and I cannot wait for it to be done. Well I do wish and I do hope that our thesis will still be accepted or else, I won't get my TOR or we will have to re-do it. Both are the worst case scenarios. So yaah.

Anyways, I'm sort of having a productive day. I cleaned the unit. Somehow, managed to pack other stuff. I'm still thinking tho wether to go home or to stay the unit for this weekend. I'm sort of feeling lazy to go home because I have to go back here tomorrow early for my best friend's baby shower.

Gotta go!!!!!!!! Have to meet up with the best guy friend and hopefully meet with my dearest best friend Elyca who just passed the entrance exam in LA SALLE! #roadtoMA #roadtoPSYCHOLOGIST.