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This song will always hold a special place in my heart. Like it literally summarizes how Karl and I are feeling right now.

Ever since he left PH, I always feel sad. Like not a day pass by that I won't even think of him or the things that we should be doing if we are together at a certain time.

I always think how my life will be if he's around. Maybe if he's around life will be easier. I wouldn't be this stressed out or pressured. Maybe if he's here, every Friday will turn in to a FRIDATE and every pay day will be PAYDATE. Or any day will be a date. Maybe if he's here we will be able to spend long weekends together or even go to the nearby province and just relax there for a few days.

Kaso nga he's not around because he have this thing called "RESPONSIBILITIES." It makes me sad that he have to go away and experience a lot of hardship just to provide the life that he wanted for his family. But at the same time it makes me so proud that at such a young age he have this huge dream and he's being so responsible enough.

It makes me sad that we have to be away together, like to be miles away with each other. It makes me even sadder to think na he'll be doing that for many years. I even counted the months na magkakasama kami sa loob ng plan nyang magbarko. Maka-5 contracts lang daw siya and he's good to go. So it's going to be 5 years. He'll have to stay on board for at least 7-8 months and when he come home, the longest stay na he can render her will be 2-3 months (I guess?). So Imagine, sa limang taon na yun, we wil lbe together for 10-12 months lang pag pinagsama sama lahat. IDK if you get me or not but whatevs. But then again, what can I do diba? It's the nature of his work. All I can do is to hope that nothing bad will happen to him and all I can do is to wait for him to come home.